I write in blood...: April 2012

Thursday, 5 April 2012

Now I understand
that the fear of rejection
governs my actions.

Posted by Ch G at 00:58

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C: I have spent most of my life feeling unwanted by those around me. This led to a severe depression that I have battled for many years. Now I'm out the other side, I write poetry as a form of therapy to rid me of the dark feelings I accrue. My poetry comes out very dark the majority of the time. Once I've written it, it is as if the feelings have been let free and they don't weigh as heavily on me allowing me to lead a normal life :-) Please leave a comment letting me know what you think of my writing. I'm always looking to improve.

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