I write in blood...

I cannot say the words
So I write them in blood
I cannot express the emotions
So I write it in blood
I cannot tell you why
But I carry on writing it in blood

I cannot cry
So I cry in blood
I cannot laugh
So I laugh in blood
I cannot feel
So I feel with blood

Numb numb numb

I often wonder why it feels the way it does
When I write in blood
I often wonder if I'm doing something wrong
When I write in blood
I often wonder when this be all end
When I write in blood.

How many others are out there
Who write in blood?
Where are we going wrong
That we write in blood?
Why is life so hard to live
When I don't write in blood?

Sometimes I sit and squeeze the cut
I imagine that all the evil in me is coming out
When I see the blood
Sometimes I sit and watch and
I imagine that the blackness inside me is receding
When I see the blood
Sometimes I sit and think
That everything will change
When I see the blood

But when it stops bleeding
Nothing has changed
When it stops hurting

I hurt

And so I start again
I write in blood.