Saturday 17 May 2014

Grief consumes me

There is something lacking
Within my soul
I feel an emptiness
Where it should be whole.

I know not what
I know not why
I know not how

I can't identify what I feel
I don't know how to feel
I am scared to feel
And so I block feelings from me

So all I feel is empty
And an all consuming grief
Grief for what could have been
Grief for what I have done

I don't know how to be a friend
I lose them all the time
I don't know what it is I do
That pushes them away

I know not what
I know not why
I know not how

All I feel is sadness
It grips me with it's claws
Digging ever deeper
Scraping at my sores

So here I sit with a tear in my eye
And a broken, empty heart
I need to become a better person
I need to make a fresh start.